What's going on now...

Come to think about it, I'm starting to dislike this job. Not literally going to 'hate' it in a way, but I think sooner or later I will somehow start to hate this job. Hopefully it won't come so fast, or maybe it won't come at all?

This is getting more and more ridiculous. Everyday's job routine is the same stupid thing. Nothing new, nothing to expect and anticipate. There's no adrenaline to push me forward. So how am I going to improve myself? Improvise? In what way?

Some people's pushing me around, someone's blocking my improvement path. And some 'good for nothing' guy tongue twisting around as if he's Eminem. Fuck off bitch! And I'm starting to dislike my seat too. The sunlight just shoots in, making my seat kinda heated. Yet the aircond does not blow to my path, and to theirs. They feel cold and keep on setting the aircond to minimum, and yet that makes my place lack of cold air, making me suffocating in a way. This is stupid!

Arrogant colleagues, acting like they knew more. Stupid office laws, controlling us like we're in a kindergarden? How unprofessional.

I walk forward, I look left and right, and look back, I'm stranded like a shit!

Wow, it's being ages since I come in to post at this blog. Somehow, updating this blog = I'm emo-ing. Life's like a shit, and shit happens. Why? Sien!!!

I've changed my job. No more working at Saberkas. Now a full time blogger. How irony, and I never update my own blog. Don't really like the new job, everyone's so quiet and all, I really miss the wacky and 'happy-go-lucky' lifestyle that I used to have back then.

Saw YS justnow after going back from watching "Predators" at MBO (*the movie sux!), but she didn't recognize me immediately. And... I was a jerk, acting cool and just walk pass by as I thought she won't notice me. But she did, and she called up, twice! It took her twice to call me, for me to consider turning back and say "Hi!". Am I such a jerk? Why am I acting like tat?

And due to this, I think back that if this was 5 years ago, I'd be the person walking beside her going for movies, instead of me going alone and back alone. So, as a jerk, I go and stalk her FB status after reaching home, wondering if she did hangout alot with J. Hmm... yea, they did. Some trips, some drinking sessions. Not like I can whine about anything. But to think back that we all used to be such fun friends. Did I really change that much? Too act-cool, no more humor, and always so quiet. I guess I'm just getting more and more annoying to them. I'm getting to hate myself a lot. Looking back at all the things, I think I screwed up my life big time.

Hey check this out, I'm still fat! Hmm... Hopefully this coming Friday I'll be able to force myself to go to gym. :D I guess that's harder than England winning the world cup! >__<

Coming up next!!!

woot~! My trip to Ji Lum Puo with Noizy Tribe! Wow, i'm the fattest and shortest inside! wtf! ROFL!!!

I'm a dummy!!!

Bought this book, SQL for Dummies like me. Its from MPH @ tHe Spring. ^_^ Hopefully i can learn some stuff inside.

Now, all i need is to find some time to wrap this book! Damn!

And its gone...

Many things had happened lately... Life is so fully packed for me, that I have no time for myself. I tried to be emo, but it turns out that I was succumbed by the liveliness and joyousness of my friends.

Though nobody knew what happened, but u guys still accompanied me through my harsh path unknowingly. I may have acted in a childish way, but I think I will move on. I believe she has moved on easily anyway.

This blog has been started for a reason, to record what happened in my life. I had abandoned it for some time now, but I think its time I continue to post some events around me.

To my beloved Noizy Tribe, you have been a great family. Shit happens in this clan, as well as everywhere, but we all pulled together, and made it through. It was a joy to be around you all.

And to my so called "Pig Friend Dog Friend" NationX, it was awesome to be around you guys, fooling around. Everyone was a great pal to me.

Ok, next up, expect more posts coming to this blog. Wooooooooooooosh!!!!!

我不知道如何带这个面具...

那么多年了，我以为我已经长大了。但我还是没长大。我很不甘心！！！！！！！我什么都不能做，只能接受这个事实。我错在哪里？？？？？？？？？？？

几年前，说你没在古晋，那我没什么办法，但现在你在这里了，怎么会好像我们那么近，又那么远呢？为什么！！！！！很吃醋！！！！很吃醋！！！！每次和你出，你都会打电话给他，不然他会打给你。为什么那个人不是我?我们没话题好聊了吗？我和你之间没东西可以聊了吗？我人身错就错在爱你，而且爱的那么多年，没说出来。。。

我错在哪里？我不好在哪里？我不帅？我没钱？没有大屋子？没有vios？不会唱歌给你听？不懂你要什么？

好！！！我变给你看！！！！！！

虽然你说我们只能够做朋友，但我会继续疼爱你。路还是要走，但我依然会把你放在心里。

我能怎样？

最经很多事，公司一个一个走。。。好多事情。。。我也很想走人，但又怕没钱。。。:D

心事也很多，“她”真实的有了男朋友，朋友说出来了，看来我已经骗不了自己，好多心事却没人好投诉。。。

也有人在我背后抓小猫。。。我也不知道如何看带这件事。。。

knn...

why, when i tried my best to arrange everything and plans nicely for everything, surely there's something pron to go wrong, making me super frustrated.

so my birthday's up, i'm gonna invite my frens 2ml nite, and bringing mum going too. Coz saturday i'm going with another bunch of friends to 红管, to celebrate my birthday with another fren whose birthday falls on the same day.

But now mum's not happy, nagging that I prioritize my frens instead of my family ppl. And i should inform her earlier that I changed the date. Now its not that i'm not bringing mum going, juz that i'm bringing her a day earlier to eat, and she get's mad at diz. WHY!!! Things always get screwed up!

and fuck the office, full of crap ppls who doesn't wanna help out and do their part of the job. And fuck Mr.WhiteMerz guy (*hopes he doesn't read diz shit) plz don look at me when the sales' so bad, look at the market and the environment plz!

Things always doesn't look good for me, really fuck up!!! Work's not good, and cash flow ain good too~! diz sux!!!

rant rant rant rant rant... wad else i wanna rant???

ya, i wonder if she'd notice its my birthday, and take the sincerity to wish me. But i wonder how i'd react if she does... I also didn't wish her happy birthday back then when its her birthday...

Looks like the only thing that's joyful to celebrate would be connie's engagement, glad that my family's ppl are getting rooted down with a happy family.

But when i look at another point, damn... All the males in this family fail shit, doesn't have a spouce (*those reaching 40s still bo liang bo juak), and no girlfriends, and not getting paired up. Look like i'm also in the league to be single for the rest of my life?!

Crap shitz!!!

and i'm getting fucked up fatting jeez!!! I'm screwed!!! No cool clothes for me diz cny? T.T

他妈的猪！！！

为什么要这样呢？说好一起去但却放我飞机。很久没看见你，很想你，你说你的生活里没有‘玩耍’这个子，我就带你去走走，你即然这样对我，你知道你这样做会让我很伤心你知道吗？？？？？

是因为男朋友不肯？是怕我的同事误会你是我的女朋友？还是肯本就不想跟我出去？

是，我喜欢你，而且也是个很久的事了，中学到现在都对你有好感。不过我都知道你不会绝受我的，所以我一路以来都没有抱着希望。而且我们只是象朋友出去而已，为什么要想那么多？

现在以不是钱的问题了，我以花了好好多心思和精神来约你出，几然在最后一分钟放我飞机。我的同事忘了买多一张票，而我又要带你去，我特地的去买多一张票给你。。。他妈的，好像我的生活在被你玩的样子。

为什么我的命那么苦。单身很爽，但每当看见人家一对对的。。。好伤心。

Core...

for no reason at all... out of the blue... Saturday...

AND I WENT FOR BASKETBALL BEFORE GOING, OMG? LULZ~!

during the afternoon, suddenly got an intercom... somebody wanna go core, lol... for wad? dunno...


"Tonight go where?"
"Dunno wo..."
"Core...?"
"Cincai...?"

and i was late too... went to play basketball, and i actually sprain my ankle AGAIN!!! zzz...

then went to 3rd mile night market for some mushroom mee...

and finally reach Core at 11 sth... wah super pack that night... and i'm so tired after playing basketball... FULL COURT! my god...

The dance floor.

Ah Chong and Ah Beng are already there getting abit "high" liau... There's a new dude, their friend too... Kinda active guy too.

Amy & Co, Ah Ping & Co, Ah Di, Ren Hua, George, who else? Ah Loong... AND OH YEAH AH SUNG!!!

I though ah sung won't come, coz he say he might drop by, but not bad, he turn up. :D

Wow Core is actually a nice place to dance, coz the dance floor is somewhat bigger than Soho, but still not big compared to KL's Zouk, and of coz, Singapore....

But that night was fun. Even went up to the bass speakers to dance... XD
And there's this chick Lancy... i think. Cute!

Yah there's so many hawt chicks around... Lulz~!
Yep was so much fun dancing and shaking around like siao lang with ah chong them... and the gals that we dunno. LOL~! Till 1:30AM i think...

and i can say... I PLAY BASKETBALL ALSO NO SWEAT SO MUCH LIKE CORE...
cORE IS A SAUNA PLACE? HAHAHAHA!!!!

literally, i'm wet (*shirt lar... not btm... kak su no take any chicks number....) and also, i think there's a moment i dance until my leg cramp... -______- need to stop for a while, coz the bass is juz right next to my legs... LOL~!

after cORE, went to lok lok with ah sung, amy & co., ah di, and ah chong...
the others already go home... and george went to BarZing... ffk us ba... LOL!

Ah Chong and Ah Di siam my cam!?!?
Shy shy ler... so high liau still wan shy shy... dance with hawt chicks no c u shy shy ler...

and the blardy hell super duper expensiv lok lok... total up to RM35.50!!! *pengsan*