What's going on now...

Come to think about it, I'm starting to dislike this job. Not literally going to 'hate' it in a way, but I think sooner or later I will somehow start to hate this job. Hopefully it won't come so fast, or maybe it won't come at all?

This is getting more and more ridiculous. Everyday's job routine is the same stupid thing. Nothing new, nothing to expect and anticipate. There's no adrenaline to push me forward. So how am I going to improve myself? Improvise? In what way?

Some people's pushing me around, someone's blocking my improvement path. And some 'good for nothing' guy tongue twisting around as if he's Eminem. Fuck off bitch! And I'm starting to dislike my seat too. The sunlight just shoots in, making my seat kinda heated. Yet the aircond does not blow to my path, and to theirs. They feel cold and keep on setting the aircond to minimum, and yet that makes my place lack of cold air, making me suffocating in a way. This is stupid!

Arrogant colleagues, acting like they knew more. Stupid office laws, controlling us like we're in a kindergarden? How unprofessional.

I walk forward, I look left and right, and look back, I'm stranded like a shit!

Wow, it's being ages since I come in to post at this blog. Somehow, updating this blog = I'm emo-ing. Life's like a shit, and shit happens. Why? Sien!!!

I've changed my job. No more working at Saberkas. Now a full time blogger. How irony, and I never update my own blog. Don't really like the new job, everyone's so quiet and all, I really miss the wacky and 'happy-go-lucky' lifestyle that I used to have back then.

Saw YS justnow after going back from watching "Predators" at MBO (*the movie sux!), but she didn't recognize me immediately. And... I was a jerk, acting cool and just walk pass by as I thought she won't notice me. But she did, and she called up, twice! It took her twice to call me, for me to consider turning back and say "Hi!". Am I such a jerk? Why am I acting like tat?

And due to this, I think back that if this was 5 years ago, I'd be the person walking beside her going for movies, instead of me going alone and back alone. So, as a jerk, I go and stalk her FB status after reaching home, wondering if she did hangout alot with J. Hmm... yea, they did. Some trips, some drinking sessions. Not like I can whine about anything. But to think back that we all used to be such fun friends. Did I really change that much? Too act-cool, no more humor, and always so quiet. I guess I'm just getting more and more annoying to them. I'm getting to hate myself a lot. Looking back at all the things, I think I screwed up my life big time.

Hey check this out, I'm still fat! Hmm... Hopefully this coming Friday I'll be able to force myself to go to gym. :D I guess that's harder than England winning the world cup! >__<