What's going on now...

Come to think about it, I'm starting to dislike this job. Not literally going to 'hate' it in a way, but I think sooner or later I will somehow start to hate this job. Hopefully it won't come so fast, or maybe it won't come at all?

This is getting more and more ridiculous. Everyday's job routine is the same stupid thing. Nothing new, nothing to expect and anticipate. There's no adrenaline to push me forward. So how am I going to improve myself? Improvise? In what way?

Some people's pushing me around, someone's blocking my improvement path. And some 'good for nothing' guy tongue twisting around as if he's Eminem. Fuck off bitch! And I'm starting to dislike my seat too. The sunlight just shoots in, making my seat kinda heated. Yet the aircond does not blow to my path, and to theirs. They feel cold and keep on setting the aircond to minimum, and yet that makes my place lack of cold air, making me suffocating in a way. This is stupid!

Arrogant colleagues, acting like they knew more. Stupid office laws, controlling us like we're in a kindergarden? How unprofessional.

I walk forward, I look left and right, and look back, I'm stranded like a shit!

Wow, it's being ages since I come in to post at this blog. Somehow, updating this blog = I'm emo-ing. Life's like a shit, and shit happens. Why? Sien!!!

I've changed my job. No more working at Saberkas. Now a full time blogger. How irony, and I never update my own blog. Don't really like the new job, everyone's so quiet and all, I really miss the wacky and 'happy-go-lucky' lifestyle that I used to have back then.

Saw YS justnow after going back from watching "Predators" at MBO (*the movie sux!), but she didn't recognize me immediately. And... I was a jerk, acting cool and just walk pass by as I thought she won't notice me. But she did, and she called up, twice! It took her twice to call me, for me to consider turning back and say "Hi!". Am I such a jerk? Why am I acting like tat?

And due to this, I think back that if this was 5 years ago, I'd be the person walking beside her going for movies, instead of me going alone and back alone. So, as a jerk, I go and stalk her FB status after reaching home, wondering if she did hangout alot with J. Hmm... yea, they did. Some trips, some drinking sessions. Not like I can whine about anything. But to think back that we all used to be such fun friends. Did I really change that much? Too act-cool, no more humor, and always so quiet. I guess I'm just getting more and more annoying to them. I'm getting to hate myself a lot. Looking back at all the things, I think I screwed up my life big time.

Hey check this out, I'm still fat! Hmm... Hopefully this coming Friday I'll be able to force myself to go to gym. :D I guess that's harder than England winning the world cup! >__<

Coming up next!!!

woot~! My trip to Ji Lum Puo with Noizy Tribe! Wow, i'm the fattest and shortest inside! wtf! ROFL!!!

I'm a dummy!!!

Bought this book, SQL for Dummies like me. Its from MPH @ tHe Spring. ^_^ Hopefully i can learn some stuff inside.

Now, all i need is to find some time to wrap this book! Damn!

And its gone...

Many things had happened lately... Life is so fully packed for me, that I have no time for myself. I tried to be emo, but it turns out that I was succumbed by the liveliness and joyousness of my friends.

Though nobody knew what happened, but u guys still accompanied me through my harsh path unknowingly. I may have acted in a childish way, but I think I will move on. I believe she has moved on easily anyway.

This blog has been started for a reason, to record what happened in my life. I had abandoned it for some time now, but I think its time I continue to post some events around me.

To my beloved Noizy Tribe, you have been a great family. Shit happens in this clan, as well as everywhere, but we all pulled together, and made it through. It was a joy to be around you all.

And to my so called "Pig Friend Dog Friend" NationX, it was awesome to be around you guys, fooling around. Everyone was a great pal to me.

Ok, next up, expect more posts coming to this blog. Wooooooooooooosh!!!!!

我不知道如何带这个面具...

那么多年了，我以为我已经长大了。但我还是没长大。我很不甘心！！！！！！！我什么都不能做，只能接受这个事实。我错在哪里？？？？？？？？？？？

几年前，说你没在古晋，那我没什么办法，但现在你在这里了，怎么会好像我们那么近，又那么远呢？为什么！！！！！很吃醋！！！！很吃醋！！！！每次和你出，你都会打电话给他，不然他会打给你。为什么那个人不是我?我们没话题好聊了吗？我和你之间没东西可以聊了吗？我人身错就错在爱你，而且爱的那么多年，没说出来。。。

我错在哪里？我不好在哪里？我不帅？我没钱？没有大屋子？没有vios？不会唱歌给你听？不懂你要什么？

好！！！我变给你看！！！！！！

虽然你说我们只能够做朋友，但我会继续疼爱你。路还是要走，但我依然会把你放在心里。